What do you think. I can't be all the things I'm supposed to be right now, so I have to choose. I can't be the perfect student and the perfect friend. Neither can I pursue a personal life as well as submerge myself completely in personal statement (instead of choosing one or the other I go back and forth and end up just twitching a lot). I know I can do the things I need to more quickly than I am and maybe even stay on top of everything but I'm struggling. Someone somewhere along hte line is going to suffer, probably my grade which unfortunately at this stage of the game means my portfolio and thus my life if I ever really go for the artist thing with all I've got. I'm ready to give it all I've got but then there are people, who I want to be there for.

Right now I'm sitting in the art studio, it's 11:42 PM and it's my lucky day, I am picking up a roving wireless network. I just got done working on a project that was sort of due already some time back there, I know I can do this thing though, if I can do anything, I can do the swamped artist thing.

This current project is going to be a fun one. I have constructed a life-size Apollo. Apollo and I are going to shoot some pictures in various suburban locations. The basic idea behind this springs from my vehement hatred of suburban living. Apollo will look really unfortunate standing there in front of Wal-Mart with the shopping cart, or going to McDonalds or participating in some other degrading activity having to do with commercialism or advertising.

Originally I was just going to make some drawings of this situation, but my professor was the one who suggested the life-size thing.

So the fact that I will have a giant naked greek god in my portfolio from now on, is something I can thank Maria for.

I think after Apollo and I have our fun, we will finish off our day by doing a little skateboarding.